Starting Over

Sometimes it just makes more sense to throw out and begin anew. Let's call this that effort. A clean slate. While finding the time to blog has been difficult at best lately, a large part of the challenge has been that the things I was thinking about and changing in my world just no longer fit the "back of the pack" mentality anymore, so it was hard to fit it in. It needed an overhaul. So here we are.

I have a feeling this will take me a while and the groove will be very different than NSBotP, but so be it. Here's my best attempt at 'splaining the start of a very different chapter in my life.

When last I left off blogging (there were several draft entries that never got published) I had started on something called Crossfit. If you followed the old blog you know it a little. What you may not know is that Crossfit was a part of a much larger mental shift I was making. I realized right around the marathon last year that I had achieved a level of fitness to make running a marathon achievable, but that fitness wasn't really meshing with the wellness and real definition of health I wanted. In essence, something was missing and I had a sense that achieving that goal should have felt more epiphanous than it did. I was fit but I wasn't healthy and for the first moment in time I realized how wildly different those two things are, despite our culture thinking of them as synonymous.

Thinking about that was like pulling at a thread and next thing you knew, I was throwing out a lot of my world and reinventing it. I started challenging my reasoning, my habits, my diet, my very biomechanics. It's been very eye opening to say the least. The more I've poked, the more I've realized that our culture as a whole treats wellness in this largely reductionist and self-defeating way. It's like we've all forgotten the principles of equilibrium and live in some collective haze-- myself included. So without meaning to, I started pulling on that thread and things just started to go from there.

So I think this blog is going to be quite a hodgepog of thoughts... likely very different than my last blog (hopefully shorter), but more about the insights of the unravel and the connections I am starting to put together in my own head. I also realized I should start tagging this because it was going to cover a lot of different topics, so I'm tagging this with just some of the topics I know are going to come up... cause its sort of where my brain has been since June(ish). Call it a preview of the brain dump that is likely to ensue.